Whenever I speak with people about what I do with CVM I get asked the same questions over and over again: Why do you do what you do? What is your driving force? Why on earth would you want to give up a really good, well paid job and go and work for Jesus?
As Elizabeth and I began to think about getting married and being a Christian, she obviously wanted to get married in the church. But I was thinking how can I do this? How can stand and make promises to some God that I don’t even know is real? This eventually led me to start attending church on a Sunday with her, but this didn’t help with the answers to my questions, in fact there were a few Sundays when I thought that the Minister was talking drivel!
Some of the people that I encountered in the church seemed more concerned with my occupation, the team that I supported or what was my preferred drink. I saw it more as a social club with little more to offer than I could find with my mates in the pub. But my questions remained, why were they coming together as church, what made them come along each and every week and more importantly who is this God that I am going to make these wedding vows to? What was I missing? What was I not getting?
Some people within the church organised an Alpha Course and I was invited along to hopefully answer some of my questions. Attending this course proved to be one of the best decisions that I made in my life. The Gospel was presented to me in a way that I had been searching for and choosing to follow Jesus seemed like a very logical decision to make.
When I made the decision to follow Jesus, I was caught up in a whirlwind of emotions. I was of course overjoyed but at the same time I was incredibly disappointed.
It seemed to me that the Church had this amazing secret that they didn’t tell me years before.
There and then I made a conscious decision to always share my faith in Jesus with everyone whenever the opportunity arises, to not be ashamed or shy about my faith no matter how counter cultural it may be.
I am constantly wondering how many other people are out there seeking like I was but failing to find the answers, the answer that we know is Jesus.
This is and always will be the driving force behind everything that I do!